Little Moments

Smiles, coos, giggles, cries
Late nights, early mornings, long days
Trying to soak them all up
You weigh more than yesterday
Wishing that I could press pause
Every day is a goodbye to this version and a hello to the new
Wishing I could bottle up all of the versions of you
Little moments in motherhood
Feel like trying to hold water as it slips through my cupped hand

Christmas Tradition

Cuddled up here in bed
Warm under our duvet
Watching Christmas with the Kranks
You snoozing away
Our Christmas tree glowing
Brightening the room with color
The scent of pine and a chill in the air
It's become a tradition
We did this last December
I feel like I blinked
You are so much bigger now
More independent
I'll lie here and soak up this moment
Before I blink again

First Steps

You are starting to stand
Nervous to walk
Gentle encouragement
You can do it
Your first steps
Walking towards mama
My arms stretched out
To break any fall
The biggest smile across your face
You are doing it
Be confident
My sweet boy
The Lord has big plans for you

Two Weeks Before Halloween

A cool fall breeze blows gently through the window A light scent of wet concrete from rain stirring in the air with cinnamon from our festive fall broom Sounds of leaves rustling along the ground outside Orange pumpkin lights hanging above us and soft sunlight peeking through the clouds into our home Sharing our beige fluffy blanket Keeping warm and cozy Your weight on my lap and in my arms Your little hand gently resting on me You have outgrown the space on just my chest Dusty, tiny toes, from your morning of play Sticking out from the blanket, just the way you like them Shallow soft breaths and little snores as you sleep deeply and nurse Golden blonde curly hair Rosy cheeks and ears Long brown eyelashes My boy, here safe in my arms My greatest blessing This is all I’ve ever wanted

Mama

No other title can match it
Nothing is better
Than hearing you call me mama with your sweet, groggy little voice
Unprompted
For the first time on the morning of your first birthday
As we laid in bed with the windows open
Palm trees and fog outside
One year ago today
You stole my heart
Nothing more rewarding 
Than being your mama

God’s Blessings

We used to come here and dream of you
We used to come here and pray for you
Now we come here with you

Late Nights

Mama is here
You are safe with me
My weary eyes
Gazing down at you
The soft glow of the moon
Shining into our room
Highlighting your sweet features
Big beautiful eyes, little soft ringlets
Your tiny hands gently holding me
As you nurse
We rock and sway
Please sleep little one
Running on little sleep
Up until dawn
Nurturing you
No place I'd rather be
Than holding you here in the dark

73°

Never will I forget that afternoon
Being wheeled out of the hospital
All 8 pounds of you, cradled in my arms
Warm against my chest
The suns hazy glow hits on our cheeks
73 degrees and a slight breeze
The first time you got a breath of fresh air
Felt like my first time too
Leaving the hospital
Both of us born new

Seven Eleven

Born on a foggy afternoon by the sea
My first memory of you is your warmth on my skin
Complete peace, euphoria
Nothing like bringing a baby into the world
This is it
I found my purpose
Days of waves
Trying to bring you earthside
Hi baby
You're finally here and you are everything
I have ever wanted
My whole world
I am forever changed
I will rejoice in the Lord for your life
For all of my days

Yellow

While we are still one
And others know you only by feeling the kicks in my belly
Mama knows
Your energy is the color yellow
Calming, warming, blissful, energizing
I was born to be your mama
Counting down the days to meet you
Early mornings
With golden sun rays creeping through our windows into our bed to wake us
Crazy little kicks
Long walks
Warm days
Late nights with no sleep as the waves come and go
It has been a long July voyage
Now you are finally here
My first memory of you is your warmth on my skin
My summer sunshine boy

Tiny Bubbles

Nothing near as exciting
As the joy of new life
Swirling inside my belly
Tiny bubbles
Little flips and kicks
New sensations
Radiant elation
Here you are 
A perfect miracle
All I've ever wanted
The joy is indescribable
I can't wait to meet you
My precious little soul